Sunday, August 24, 2008
Hey!
Today... Well. I'm still quite emotional about the transfer and stuff, but that's not the point. What i really wanna share is about God, how He knows us and helps us.
Yesterday... We all cried alot, especially me i guess. When i reached home, i cried in the shower. I cried about the transfer, about how i would miss them and stuff. I told God how much i needed Him by me, to strengthen me and help me to focus on Him, my One and Only Audience.
I was really desperately searching for assurance and verses to encourage myself to hang on tight to God. I looked in Biblegateway, searching for "pain" and "separation", but i found nothing! I was really desperate not to let myself get emo or not to let this transfer affect me too much. I needed God to cling tightly on. I needed Him.
Today... PSC met up for Worship and Teaching. During Worship, i was THROROUGHLY TOUCHED by God.
"And Lord we trust in Your unfailing love
For You alone are God eternal
Throughout earth and heaven above"
-Great is the Lord-
At first i couldn't sing this.
"I give my all to You
send me and I will go for You"
"Tell me and I'll obey
This is far greater than sacrifice
Trust in You and not myself
Will always lead to blessings
Lord have Your way in me
Not my will Yours be done"
"Hold me now and never ever let me go"
-I'm Forever Yours-
But i did in the end.
And also, the prophecies also applied very much to me. I need to focus on God. Not to let anything else hinder my walk with God. No matter what, all of us have to keep on walking, trudging with God. No matter how hard it is.
I remembered when I told God and proudly exclaimed to my shepherd, Joyce Tan. "No matter what, even if my shepherd wasn't there anymore, even though people are all condemning me, even though nobody else believed, I would believe in Jesus Christ." This is it. Now is the time I show and apply what I've said. Now.
Also, I talked to Joan and asked her about Ultraman and the separation. She talked to me and encouraged me to be strong. To be brave. To rejoice. Because this is for the benefit of God's Kingdom. Thanks Joan:)
I talked to Suwanie online as well. Suwanie from Central A. I asked her about the time when she transferred there. She encouraged me as well:) She was telling me about how she was unwilling to change at first. And how she coped, with Jogina's teaching, and how she adapted. Thanks Suwanie!
While I'm typing all this, I'm encouraging myself too:) Keep on walking with God. Never, ever give up. No matter what.
Hehe. Today i went to Joyce's house for the first time. And i saw her room for the first time too:) Haha! P.S. My love language is quality time okay! Haha:P
I love you all, North A!
reb.North A
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